Yes, it's been a year and a half since I graduated. What do I have to show for it? Fifteen extra pounds and a sleep schedule that rivals Dracula. I admit, I've had my ups and downs in life, but this one sure takes the cake (and I don't even like cake).
I'm in a rut. My boyfriend is off in Alabama working on a construction site so my only tie to the outside world is gone and my best friend is off in Halifax working towards her dream. As I've pined before on this site; what is my dream? It's hard being a twenty-three year old loser living in her dad's house sitting in fuzzy ducky pj's trying to figure out what she's good at in life. So boo-hoo right? I've been sitting here depressed (crying at times) trying to figure out what happened to that care-free, outgoing, fun loving comedian I once was just eighteen months ago. Seriously! What happened?!
The recession. Evil ex-bosses. Crazy overbearing family. Growing up. Graduation. Life. Life happened.
So why am I not currently living it? I've been searching non-stop for a job. Applying relentlessly to the point I'm losing sleep worrying over why I haven't gotten a bite yet. I love the internet craze, don't get me wrong, but when the entire world relies on applying for jobs online it's hard for someone to get your personality off a piece of paper. I miss the good old days when you had to go in person to ask for a job and drop off a resume. Nowadays when you try that, they tell you to go online. When you do that, you don't hear from anyone except for jobs that you are way too under qualified for. I applied for a job which was similar to one I had in the past and they told me I was not qualified for it. It was sorting mail. How under qualified can that be. I got another telling me I was overqualified for it. For answering phones. I don't care if I am over or under qualified for something. I need a purpose in my life other than just sitting in fuzzy ducky pj's blogging about how my life sucks right now.
I'll admit it. I'm an unemployed graduate watching Glee and America's Next Top Model re-runs to occupy myself until my muse comes back.
So I ask you this: if you see my muse, please send it back. I'm starting to feel like how Martha Stewart felt under house arrest.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Ravelry
I have recently joined a crocheting/knitting website and I am so glad I did. The patterns are endless. I have so many ideas on what to make and what to give for Christmas. I'm planning to make my sister a Tardis pillow (hopefully that works out) and my boyfriend's sister a Mario Luma plushie.
The Tardis will be a bit more intense as I would need to modify a pattern and find a pillow... but in theory it seems very doable. I also found a Tardis blanket that I know she'd love but it will have to wait until her birthday because that thing is MENTAL! and I would need to find the correct blue to make it.
As for boyfriend, I don't know yet. His birthday is coming up and he wants me to buy him his tattoo... but he says depending on the price he doesn't want me to spend too much... so perhaps a pair of NIN wrist cuffs. If all goes great with my sisters pillow, I may make him a Torchwood one. But I'm still working things out.
Now to think of things for boy's Momma, boy's father, boy's brother, my momma, momma's boyfriend, step sister (a cowl maybe?) and step mom. Oh and BFF (can't write anything here... she actually reads my blog). Dad won't like anything I get/make him anyway... so that one's going to be tough.
Right now I need to shower (got a temp job and start in two days) and finish spa treatment. Need to start my nails (painting them before bed) and then start the plushie. Need to start now before I run out of time!
-N
The Tardis will be a bit more intense as I would need to modify a pattern and find a pillow... but in theory it seems very doable. I also found a Tardis blanket that I know she'd love but it will have to wait until her birthday because that thing is MENTAL! and I would need to find the correct blue to make it.
As for boyfriend, I don't know yet. His birthday is coming up and he wants me to buy him his tattoo... but he says depending on the price he doesn't want me to spend too much... so perhaps a pair of NIN wrist cuffs. If all goes great with my sisters pillow, I may make him a Torchwood one. But I'm still working things out.
Now to think of things for boy's Momma, boy's father, boy's brother, my momma, momma's boyfriend, step sister (a cowl maybe?) and step mom. Oh and BFF (can't write anything here... she actually reads my blog). Dad won't like anything I get/make him anyway... so that one's going to be tough.
Right now I need to shower (got a temp job and start in two days) and finish spa treatment. Need to start my nails (painting them before bed) and then start the plushie. Need to start now before I run out of time!
-N
Sunday, September 12, 2010
It's that time of year again...
Yes, it's that time of year again. I don't know what it is about September that suddenly makes me want to redecorate, but when the beginning of September rolls around I have to change something in my room. Perhaps it's due to my living in residence and I decorated my room for the start of the school year... or perhaps it's just Fall. Who knows!
Last year it was the need to paint (which was postponed until July since my dad refused to allow me to paint my walls green so I convinced him on a sky blue) where as this year it's putting up photos.
I love Ireland. So I used an old calendar of scenic Ireland my mom got me for Chirstmas a few years ago and I got twelve cheap glass photo frames and went to work. I did this for my final year in University and it took this long to finally say: "That's it! They're going up!".
And so they are.
They are just above my bed and my step mom are afraid they will come crashing down on me while I sleep. I demonstrated by kicking and punching the wall (much to the disdain to my shared wall neighbours) that they may rattle but wont fall... and if they do then they will fall down between the bed and the wall and not hurt me.
Today was productive. It was my dad's birthday and boy came over for lunch. Then we chilled for a few hours watching the Back to the Future marathon and a bit of Criminal Minds (I passed out for an hour and can't remember what the episode was).Now Dad is downstairs chilling, boy is back home taking care of his sick brother, my sister is back at my Moms and I'm here working on some crochet projects.
All in all, it is that time of year.
-Nessa
Last year it was the need to paint (which was postponed until July since my dad refused to allow me to paint my walls green so I convinced him on a sky blue) where as this year it's putting up photos.
I love Ireland. So I used an old calendar of scenic Ireland my mom got me for Chirstmas a few years ago and I got twelve cheap glass photo frames and went to work. I did this for my final year in University and it took this long to finally say: "That's it! They're going up!".
And so they are.
They are just above my bed and my step mom are afraid they will come crashing down on me while I sleep. I demonstrated by kicking and punching the wall (much to the disdain to my shared wall neighbours) that they may rattle but wont fall... and if they do then they will fall down between the bed and the wall and not hurt me.
Today was productive. It was my dad's birthday and boy came over for lunch. Then we chilled for a few hours watching the Back to the Future marathon and a bit of Criminal Minds (I passed out for an hour and can't remember what the episode was).Now Dad is downstairs chilling, boy is back home taking care of his sick brother, my sister is back at my Moms and I'm here working on some crochet projects.
All in all, it is that time of year.
-Nessa
Friday, September 10, 2010
Follow Friday
These are some of the blogs I follow for inspiration and creativity. Please check out some of their work!
Crazy About Costumes - My best friend's cosplay/costume blog. Tips on how to make costumes on a budget!
Etsy Labs - Tips on making your Etsy shop successful as well as craft tutorials!
Planet June - A fellow crocheter. She has some amazing and adorable designs!
That's the one's I follow almost daily. I'll be searching for new blogs and craft ideas soon!
-Nessa
Crazy About Costumes - My best friend's cosplay/costume blog. Tips on how to make costumes on a budget!
Etsy Labs - Tips on making your Etsy shop successful as well as craft tutorials!
Planet June - A fellow crocheter. She has some amazing and adorable designs!
That's the one's I follow almost daily. I'll be searching for new blogs and craft ideas soon!
-Nessa
Quarter Life Crisis.
So. It's been a long time since I posted last and a lot has changed. I have changed my mind on what I want to be and am still searching for it. I am no longer interested in going to Dalhousie (as you can see, I'm still on the big T.O. with nothing to do not even a job).
It's hard to find out what one wants to do in life and as I have been catering to what my family and friends wanted of me since I was young, I have realized that what they hoped for me was not what I wanted in life and wouldn't be happy if I continued on the route I was on. Rather than have their dreams come true, I put everything aside on a useless journey of self discovery. Since April I have been searching within myself to find what I enjoy on life or find interesting to turn into a career. I was tired with holding dead end retail jobs so I joined with a temp agency. Although nothing has come of it yet but one three day job, I hope that something will hit my brain like lightening and I will suddenly know which direction to take and finally start my life.
There are a few constant things in my life that I can be thankful for. For one, my other half (Alex) whom I met in November of last year has been a pillar of constant support and love. He encourages me to be myself and to go for my dreams (whatever they may be once I figure it out) and to never give up. The second, my best friend who, like my boyfriend Alex, puts up with my constant crazy and my changing my mind. In a way she is my costuming/crafting mentor and in another she is a role model. Not only has she found what she wants to do in life, she has grabbed it by the horns and is now in Halifax studying costuming. And finally the last is my creativity. It comes in leaps and bounds and there it never seems to dry up. My hands are constantly itching for new projects to try and things to get dirty. These three things have kept me sane the past few months and will keep me going onwards.
I have many dreams and ideas in life on what I wish to accomplish. Many will stay that way. But for others I hope they become a reality.
To open a shop with all my hand made items.
To work in/open a candy shop.
To work with computers either in graphics or IT.
To become a teacher.
To create and sell my work.
To become an actress.
To get my license.
To hold a job with health care.
To get married.
To have kids and dress them up as the justice league for Halloween.
To find a job I am content and satisfied with.
As you can see, I have no idea what path in life I want to take. If being a stay at home mom and running my own business from home was a job where I could have a stable income, I would. I know I'm not cubicle material. I truly consider myself someone who will always be off the beaten path and is a little more... original (crazy, outgoing, quirky?) and wish to find a job that represents me as well. It's unrealistic, I know, but as a dreamer and a crafter, I know it in my soul that I was meant to do something unique with my life.
So, this blog will be a way for me to post crafts and updates from my social life to keep me sane and a way for myself to reflect over my life and where it leads.
-Nessa
It's hard to find out what one wants to do in life and as I have been catering to what my family and friends wanted of me since I was young, I have realized that what they hoped for me was not what I wanted in life and wouldn't be happy if I continued on the route I was on. Rather than have their dreams come true, I put everything aside on a useless journey of self discovery. Since April I have been searching within myself to find what I enjoy on life or find interesting to turn into a career. I was tired with holding dead end retail jobs so I joined with a temp agency. Although nothing has come of it yet but one three day job, I hope that something will hit my brain like lightening and I will suddenly know which direction to take and finally start my life.
There are a few constant things in my life that I can be thankful for. For one, my other half (Alex) whom I met in November of last year has been a pillar of constant support and love. He encourages me to be myself and to go for my dreams (whatever they may be once I figure it out) and to never give up. The second, my best friend who, like my boyfriend Alex, puts up with my constant crazy and my changing my mind. In a way she is my costuming/crafting mentor and in another she is a role model. Not only has she found what she wants to do in life, she has grabbed it by the horns and is now in Halifax studying costuming. And finally the last is my creativity. It comes in leaps and bounds and there it never seems to dry up. My hands are constantly itching for new projects to try and things to get dirty. These three things have kept me sane the past few months and will keep me going onwards.
I have many dreams and ideas in life on what I wish to accomplish. Many will stay that way. But for others I hope they become a reality.
To open a shop with all my hand made items.
To work in/open a candy shop.
To work with computers either in graphics or IT.
To become a teacher.
To create and sell my work.
To become an actress.
To get my license.
To hold a job with health care.
To get married.
To have kids and dress them up as the justice league for Halloween.
To find a job I am content and satisfied with.
As you can see, I have no idea what path in life I want to take. If being a stay at home mom and running my own business from home was a job where I could have a stable income, I would. I know I'm not cubicle material. I truly consider myself someone who will always be off the beaten path and is a little more... original (crazy, outgoing, quirky?) and wish to find a job that represents me as well. It's unrealistic, I know, but as a dreamer and a crafter, I know it in my soul that I was meant to do something unique with my life.
So, this blog will be a way for me to post crafts and updates from my social life to keep me sane and a way for myself to reflect over my life and where it leads.
-Nessa
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Venus
Well, I've had a costume sleepover with my friend who is ace in making sailor senshi at this point.
We basically watched a whole 1.5 seasons of Sailor Moon and a sailor moon movie to boot to get us in the mood. I've worked on the body suit pattern and the Venus collar. I was having trouble with the damn iron and need to figure out what is the best setting to not burn the fabric and not have it leak all over it (which stains it). Satin fabric really is Satan's fabric.
I still need to get a wig, the body suit fabric and the blue satin fabric for my front bow. After that it's all a jigsaw to put together and accessories. Which reminds me, I need cheap orange gems to make the earrings.
I wish I had a camera to show progress but I don't have anything. I would work on the skirt but I don't have the body suit fabric. Soon I will be able to figure things out and finally work on it.
Well, I'm off to figure out how to iron things and work on the gloves.
We basically watched a whole 1.5 seasons of Sailor Moon and a sailor moon movie to boot to get us in the mood. I've worked on the body suit pattern and the Venus collar. I was having trouble with the damn iron and need to figure out what is the best setting to not burn the fabric and not have it leak all over it (which stains it). Satin fabric really is Satan's fabric.
I still need to get a wig, the body suit fabric and the blue satin fabric for my front bow. After that it's all a jigsaw to put together and accessories. Which reminds me, I need cheap orange gems to make the earrings.
I wish I had a camera to show progress but I don't have anything. I would work on the skirt but I don't have the body suit fabric. Soon I will be able to figure things out and finally work on it.
Well, I'm off to figure out how to iron things and work on the gloves.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Ties and Sailor Moon info
Yesterday my mom and I went out to garage sales. I got about 100+ ties for about $10 so I can make about 7-10 skirts out of them and the leftovers I can make into purses and stuff. I'm really excited. Also on our outing, I found a VHS of Sailor Moon S. I got it for about 50 cents so I hope it works. Another bargin yesterday was a school girl's skirt uniform which I can use for a Maka Albarn cosplay costume if I choose to make it. It was $1 and the skirt has built in shorts. Big plus. Cheap and I don't have to wear shorts underneath.
I would like to have a model form duty as soon as possible.Whenever I find one it's too big. Finding one that's smaller than my dimensions is ideal so I can pad the areas to my specifications. My mom and I come close to finding them on several occasions but they end up being too big. Perhaps some time this week I'll convince her to wrap me in duct tape and make a body cast until I can find one to use.
I bought the Sailor Venus gloves a few days ago. They were 50% off since it's prom season so I saved $8. Now that my dog is here at my mom's I can't do a lot of sewing since I sew on the main floor and that is the only floor the dog is allowed on. My dog can be nosy and my mom and I are afraid she'll get into my needles or something.
I should be heading back to my dad's next week or something. I'm sick so I don't have a lot of strength. Also it's a feat to just do anything without coughing up a lung. The doctor's don't know what it is but whenever they diagnose it's always different. Allergies. Common cold. Ear infection. If they actually listened to me and my symptoms I'd be up and about. Nevermind.
I'm looking for another character to cosplay for FanExpo. I'm hoping Sailor Venus will be done for then so I'll have plenty of time to find and design another costume. I was actually going to call up my sister (who's currently in Europe) and ask if she wanted me to make her a Sailor Moon or Mercury costume for Halloween. But then I realized I'd likely kill myself doing a commission. I'll wait until she comes back in August to figure out if I'll make her costume and if what she picks is doable.
I would like to have a model form duty as soon as possible.Whenever I find one it's too big. Finding one that's smaller than my dimensions is ideal so I can pad the areas to my specifications. My mom and I come close to finding them on several occasions but they end up being too big. Perhaps some time this week I'll convince her to wrap me in duct tape and make a body cast until I can find one to use.
I bought the Sailor Venus gloves a few days ago. They were 50% off since it's prom season so I saved $8. Now that my dog is here at my mom's I can't do a lot of sewing since I sew on the main floor and that is the only floor the dog is allowed on. My dog can be nosy and my mom and I are afraid she'll get into my needles or something.
I should be heading back to my dad's next week or something. I'm sick so I don't have a lot of strength. Also it's a feat to just do anything without coughing up a lung. The doctor's don't know what it is but whenever they diagnose it's always different. Allergies. Common cold. Ear infection. If they actually listened to me and my symptoms I'd be up and about. Nevermind.
I'm looking for another character to cosplay for FanExpo. I'm hoping Sailor Venus will be done for then so I'll have plenty of time to find and design another costume. I was actually going to call up my sister (who's currently in Europe) and ask if she wanted me to make her a Sailor Moon or Mercury costume for Halloween. But then I realized I'd likely kill myself doing a commission. I'll wait until she comes back in August to figure out if I'll make her costume and if what she picks is doable.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Sailor Venus: Two
So I'm hopefully going to work on my costuming stuff today. This week has been crazy (allergies, doctors appointments and Twilight) makes this costumer a bit overwhelmed. Yesterday I had a doctors appointment to see where my health is at since it's been on the fritz for a long time now. Got a blood test and 14 viles of blood later I was a bit woozy. About two hours after that I got a deep tissue massage and basically passed out as soon as I got home. I'm still tired today and am hopefully going to take it easy. I may just read and nap all day today and have a fresh new start tomorrow.
Anyway, I was wandering around my friend Nicole's costume blog and found a few sites that would help me with my Sailor Senshi costume:
Anyway, I was wandering around my friend Nicole's costume blog and found a few sites that would help me with my Sailor Senshi costume:
- Leotard
- Collar, sleeve, boot covers and more
Monday, June 1, 2009
Currently: Sailor Venus and a Vest
I'm working on a Sailor Venus costume for Fan Expo (need to plan another costume to wear next day!!!) and a McCall's Vest.
The Sailor Venus costume started out ok. I made the yellow bum bow. That's done, yay! The skirt has a hiccup as it came out a little bigger than my waist. Stupid math. So I can either buy more fabric (and by buy fabric I mean go to another store since I bought out all the orange fabric at the one close to my house) or somehow fix it without killing my circle skirt. I plan on having this costume done end of June-mid July.
The Vest (M5887 "A") was only slightly evil. I'm still working on it but since I'm at my mom's and she's off work she wants to do crazy stuff everyday. I can hardly find the time or energy for it. When I do have time I just collapse and take a nap since I'm too exhausted. Stupid health!
I'm still getting used to Arnold and so I make many little mistakes that take time to fix. Like I was using the wrong seam allowance and had to redo everything I did. It didn't take long to re-sew it, just took an hour and a half to seam ripp everything (and I still have two pannels to ripp). If I was at my dad's (who is always working during the day and my step mom gets back around 6ish) I would be done this vest in two days. However, since I'm at my mom's, this thing will be done (so-help-me-god) by the end of the week. It's only monday afterall...
The Sailor Venus costume started out ok. I made the yellow bum bow. That's done, yay! The skirt has a hiccup as it came out a little bigger than my waist. Stupid math. So I can either buy more fabric (and by buy fabric I mean go to another store since I bought out all the orange fabric at the one close to my house) or somehow fix it without killing my circle skirt. I plan on having this costume done end of June-mid July.
The Vest (M5887 "A") was only slightly evil. I'm still working on it but since I'm at my mom's and she's off work she wants to do crazy stuff everyday. I can hardly find the time or energy for it. When I do have time I just collapse and take a nap since I'm too exhausted. Stupid health!
I'm still getting used to Arnold and so I make many little mistakes that take time to fix. Like I was using the wrong seam allowance and had to redo everything I did. It didn't take long to re-sew it, just took an hour and a half to seam ripp everything (and I still have two pannels to ripp). If I was at my dad's (who is always working during the day and my step mom gets back around 6ish) I would be done this vest in two days. However, since I'm at my mom's, this thing will be done (so-help-me-god) by the end of the week. It's only monday afterall...
First Post
I decided to create a blog after my sister did for her pilgrimage in France/Spain. I was reading up on her latest entry when I realized we are both setting out on journeys. She is traveling by foot from one country to another in Europe while I am starting my interest in costuming. I really should have started this in March during my costuming class because there would be pages and pages of ranting and raving about my professor, classmates, assignments and evil fabric but as that was a very evil time, I will keep that to myself and start now as I embark on this costuming journey on my own. With a few best friends who actually know what they are doing, I will be able to reach the ultimate goal; attend the historical costuming program in Dalhousie with my BFF for the September 2010 term.
So here I go! To cosplaying, Arnold (my sewing machine), and Nicole who will be embarking on this journey with me.
-Nessa
So here I go! To cosplaying, Arnold (my sewing machine), and Nicole who will be embarking on this journey with me.
-Nessa
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